Complexes; My insecurities control me. A strong black power,like a dark cloud over me that i cant get rid off. I let them define me. My mind is always on the run,I think way too much,and 80% of the time,its something bad,it can get to a point were im scared of myself. The thoughts starts taking over and since its all in my head,i cant escape them which makes it all very frustrating. I tend to sleep when i dont want to deal with something,when i feel bad or just dont feel like facing the world,its my way of running away from my surroundings. Im a Dreamer,i often create my own world in my head,my own universe,space and just a whole planet for myself. I adore my fantasy and what im capable of creating,and all goes on in my head. It can reach the point were its so perfect that the feeling of coming back to reality makes me mad.
I hate mirros yet im addicted to them,im not comfortable with the reflection and most of the time just feel like smashing it,but then realize i dont need 7 years of bad luck.
Winter is my season. I want to believe that when it rains,its the angels dropping a tear down on us.
Ive been independent since day one,and i dont like getting things,i perfer working hard and get it myself.
Getting older scares me,i dont,i refuse to grow old.. But have to face the fact that it will happened and theres nothing i can do about it.. Im way too nice,people might mistake it for weakness. I forgive easily,but dont forget. I have a tendency to hold grudges,cant help it,thats just who i am. Im into revange,its a bad thing i know,but not when it comes to me,hurt me and i couldnt give 2cunts about it,hurt my FRIENDS and your in some deepass shit. I'll go burried up yo ass,but Hardcore,in a blackbag,no phone,no lighter and i'll drop you in the middle of nowhere.
And some torture will be involved.
I love to give people things,i enjoy making others happy even tho i cant make myself happy. I get a rush of seeing others laughing and i feel great if i can be a huge contribution to that. I love freedom,put chains around me and there will be trouble. I need space and time for myself.
I love being alone,i cherish every second of it.

I hate when people wake me up,so dont get emotional if I unleash the lion on you,you brought it on your own.

I speak my mind through songs,so 90% of the time y'all should pay attention to em'..

I have an unheatly obsession with Marilyn Manson.

Im completly smitten with Nicki Minaj. #MyCrush.

Tattoos are a passion.

I idolize Jigsaw (John Kramer)

Dita Von Teese. Marylin Monroe. And Coco Chanel inspires me.

I dislike egotistical people, especially those who brag.

My imaginarys friend name is Ralph.

Boredom drives me insane.

I believe in ghosts and the over-natural.

I HATE talking on the phone.

Im happy when i drink. And YES im AWARE on how tragic that sounds.

I hate being placed in inferior position and forced to comply with someone else's rules.

Reading and Music is my sweet escape.

TEAM C.Breezy allll the way.

I love watching people breakdance,rap & do beatboxin'.

I strongly believe in Karma,if nothing happens tho,i'll take care of it myself. :)

Fairies. Stars. Outta Space. Sparkles. Rainbows. <3

I love everything that stands out,unique and orginal.

I can be so shy and quiet that it gets awkward and im annoyed with myself. -__-

My favorite song/s from Justin Timberlake are; Cry me a river,What goes around comes around & Gone Ft. NSYNC.

My ipod contains every song from Justin Bieber.

Never leaves home without; Iphone. Wallet. Lipstick & Something to drink.

Weakness; Snacks. Guys that smell good. Sweet texts. Chiquitas with badass CURVES. Shia Labeouf.

Im obsessed with; Burlesque/Strippers. And Leopard Pattern.

I love; Make-up. Guys with ink & piercings. Old Disney movies (the classics).Sleep. Food. & Coke.



Zodiac Sign; Aquarius <3 The first thing that you will note about the people born under the Aquarius zodiac sign is that they are extremely friendly in nature. There will hardly be any person around them who is not their friend. They love their freedom. Those born under this sign are gener­ally very noble, honest, and kind-hearted. Aquarius has walked a mile in someone else's shoes with that amazing imagination, so you wont find this sign being judgmental of others. Aquarius strongly dislikes anyone who is critical or judgmental of others. The Aquarius persons are known to get bored easily and make changes in their surroundings often. The love horoscope for Aquarius persons describes them as delightful, intellectual, funny and tantalizing. They like to have an intellectual partner by their side. A good conversation and debates are enough to catch this zodiac sign’s attention. The love horoscope of Aquarius persons describes them as open-minded persons, who hold the power to accept any kind of criticism. The Aquarius persons are always described as good listeners who can listen to your problems for hours without even attempting to interrupt your talking. They are known to be most tolerant of all the zodiac signs and are very slow to take offence. They are never known to be jealous or over emotional. But if you become demanding and critical, then the Aquarius person is sure to drift apart from the relationship. Aquarius people are original and do not follow anyone else. They enjoy being different from others. The personalities of most Aquarius people are liberal. They ignore what others think and go off on their own way of thinking. They think of boredom in the terms of a disease and try to avoid it as often as they can. Independence is important to Aquarius and they will sacrifice anything to keep it. If they begin to feel trapped they will try everything to get free. They enjoy seeing others happy. They are very kind people. Aquarius people are easygoing, honest, helpful, and reasonable people. They believe in live and let live. They are never boring and can change other people's lives for the better.Aquarians do not like to be boxed-in. If an Aquarian feels like he or she is backed into a corner, the person committing this huge mistake will no doubt be on the receiving end of that Aquarian's temper, which can be explosive. Not only that, the typical Aquarius tends to hold onto bitter feelings and resentments. So, if you cross an Aquarius, don't expect to be welcomed back with opened arms. 

* You will never get bored in a relationship with an Aquarian. He/she is quite innovative and will surprise you on a regular basis.

* In the beginning they are very shy but very soon they get highly interactive.

*They believe in being honest and sincere in relationship.

*Aquarians hardly feel jealous.

*Cherishes and expects privacy.

*They are very loyal and stick with their loved ones whatever be the circumstances.

*They always maintain some space for themselves even when they are with their partner.

*They are highly caring of the ones they love.

* Has tendency to get dominant.

* Very sure of what they want.

* People born under this zodiac sign are very trustworthy and loyal.

*  They're very independent.

* One of the most apparent Aquarius personality traits is that of a humanitarian, a giver. Whether someone is in need of knowledge and enlightenment or needs a "pep talk" when feeling down, you can bet that the Aquarian will be there to offer support.

& With this entry id thought id post my Favorite video/song at the moment. Its been on repeat the whole day,cant get enough. The beats,sound,lyrics,hes voice,style, EVERYTHING bout this video speaks up to me. I beyond love it,its purrrfect. Hes becoming a total sexybeast with a kickass style,Rawrrr.

Soooooooo im going to the U.S,gon find a boy like that and moving to France. Voila' ♥

And I can hear myself saying i am better off without you,stronger than ever and i,im tellin' you now.
Dont go knockin' on my door,gotta stay away for sure. You say you miss me like crazy now,but i aint buyin' that,
you better get off my back,dont go knockin' on my door. I can see,its no mystery,its so clear to me,what we had is all history. Its OK,i can sleep at night,It will be alright. I can hear myself saying i am better off without you. Do what you want,as long as you dont come back,so dont go knockin' on my door.




You used to say that i was special,everything was right,but now you think im wearing too much make-up, that my dress is too tight. You got no reasons to be jealous,ive never been untrue. So does it really matter if they're looking, im only looking at you. You should never try to change me,i can be nobody else,and i like the way i am. What you see is what you get,this is me,if you want me,dont forget,you should take me as i am,cause i can promise you baby, what you see is what you,get. I know you watch me when im dancin',when i party with me friends. I can feel your eyes on my back,i cant have no chains around me,baby cant you see i could be anything you dream of,but i gotta feel free.  

Thats how my baby looks at the moment.. Poor thing got badly injured when i was out on friday and apperently totally smashed it,though i have NO memory of it.. I know i dropped it at some point,when we (Tanja,Mehdi & Me) was in After,somewhere at the dancefloor. And i didnt notice the crack until yesterday when i was gonna change the Iphone Skin,and got the biggest shock of my life when i saw that my almost new (only 5months) iphone was cracked,before, it didnt have a SINGLE scratch since i would be so paranoid and take care of it,and now.. Look at it.. Im beyond pissed off with myself,mostly for getting so fucking hammered that i lost control,track of reality. Though at some point i was completly gone,like i was literally on speed,and then at one moment shaking,mixed emotions,and hallucinating. After doing some HARD thinking,i came to the conclusion,ive must had gotten drugged,i left my glas to go the ladies,and parts of the night was a blur. I do remember falling some stairs (mainly cause i saw the bigass bruise on my ass the day after). So now i have to pay 3000;- To send this one in and get a new one,and its the worst timing ever since im leaving to Spain next week,so i decided to deal with it when i get back. And i dont know whom im more pissed off at,myself or my mom for not getting mad.. When i was freaking out,struggling my pillows,thorwing objects against the wall,she was all cool and only thing she said was; Its just a phone. You'll get a new one,CALM THE FUCK DOWN! If its such a big deal,me and your dad will pay for the new one.
BUT i dont want her to pay for it,I DEF dont wanna pay for a new one,but course i want one,i dont wanna have a smashed up phone damnit. Gahvgfyugrfyurfyuk6u!! I just wanna take a nap,wake up and a new iphone will magically appear under my pillow :)
Anyhoes,im out.

Nuff said.

Youd think that after years and years of shaving,you should be able to do it without cutting yourself..But nooooooo,there hasnt been one time were i havent hurt myself when shaving. Or maybe its my conscience telling me,i like it? Somewhere deep inside,i just love the sting it brings to me,the pain my body gets to feel?.. Even when waxing or with a friggen epilator i mange to somehow hurt myself. Wellwell,thankfully mamii keeps an aid-kit at home so i stole a little bandage.
Anyhoe,im getting ready to go to a baptism? yeah i think thats the correct word. My bestfriends/sister/love's big sister son :D Im so excited,i love kids,and they're the most adorable lil precious things ever, ran ysterday to the mall to buy something,i'll post later of what i bought since these nuggets read my blog and just in case haha :)
But when i was picking out something for him,i just kept thinking of the day i have my lil prince,cant wait.
I wanna have a son,hes gonna have a mohawk,lil gangster with the dopest kicks around. Awww i want one now :D
Ok shake it offff.
So yeah,i'll post piccys when i come back. Hope you all have a great day,be safe out there. Mwuah.<3

Just got home from a great night at my Jesiiii's. Watched movies,had veggie tacos & Ben & Jerry's ice creamy. And she was all nice,playing with my hair,arm and shit,of COURSE i had to pay for it -_-
She had me rubbinh her back for like 2hours EVEN in bed and EVEN when i woke up,she was all; you awake? GREAT,neck now. Well SHE payed it by making me breakfast after hihihih xD



She fell a sleep a moment during a movie.. -_-


But i manged to wake her up :D & her dope ink on her back.



Miii giving her neck massage.



Anyhoe,im home now,gonna take a shower,get ready and im outtie,gon see ma' homegurllll Tanji and her lil precious thing Dre <3

You know you really wanna,wanna taste ma'
You know you wanna get a peak,
wanna see ma'
You know you wanna put your lips
where my hips are
kiss all ma'
all over ma
all the boys think its cake when they taste ma',
you dont even need a plate,just your face,ha.
Licky Licky yum yum.